Taking a break/stepping away for a bit - could use some prayers + pixie dust
echoharmony
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As some of you may know, it's been a rough year for me so far. January 18th was the 3 year anniversary of my longtime best friend Amy's passing. February I started having agonizing pain in my hip and had to go out on medical leave; I've been on disability since. April my grandma died. May 30th was my best friend Amy's would-be 30th birthday. She had an illness called Cystic Fibrosis and it had been her goal to live to 30. She never made it. A lot of bad stuff happened with my birth mother, her sister, and her living situation(long story). My god brother and his girlfriend were in a horrible head-on collision last week; she was killed instantly, he was in the hospital for a few days. All the while I've been going to a specialist for my hip, doing physical therapy, trying to deal with the pain. My depression and anxiety have also been really bad because of everything I've been dealing with. All the financial hardship, the disability payments keep stopping and I have to keep sending in more paperwork, I don't have enough money to pay my bills, etc. I'm not getting the normal every day social interaction that I would get at work, I'm constantly in pain, I'm not sleeping well, etc.
I saw my specialist today and was told I have an extreme vitamin D deficiency, so I have to take a huge dose of it once a week. Okay, no big deal. But I was also diagnosed with Fibro Myalgia.
On top of everything else, are pins. Collecting and trading for pins has always been something that I've found enjoyment in. I used to make trades constantly. People did it because it was FUN. Now? I've run into so many greedy people who turn their noses up at my pins, or want to take every single one of my 'best' pins for ONE of their pins, try to take advantage of me because they know how badly I want something, etc. I even organized a trade with someone for the Brave marquee, was in talks with someone in Japan for quite some time trying to get a pin for this person, and then the day I exchange addresses with the person in Japan, the person I was going to get the marquee from backs out, saying something about she wants a better Ariel pin for it. So now I'm stuck trading, eating the shipping costs, and am extremely disappointed. And don't even get me started on the Pixar exclusive pins!
I just....with everything in my real life going so terribly, I need something, just one thing, to go right in my life. And all I seem to concentrate on these boards are the pins that I feel like I'll never get. The ones that seem to haunt me, that I don't have a chance at. And with the huge mountain of straws on this camel's back right now, I just can't handle any more upset, or disappointment, or devastation, or people shoving their greed, their ebay quotes, their 'gimme gimme gimme' attitudes in my face. Pin trading used to be fun, but people seem in it just for the profit these days, everyone wants to always get the better end of the deal, to 'trade up'. This is NOT geared towards the people I've traded with, and I thank every one of you for being sweet and fair and so easy to work with!
I'm done here for a while. I might still put up auctions, or place bids on 'fun auctions', things I don't care about, and I will still be around to answer PMs and fulfill trades I'm already agreed to. But for now, I give up trying to get the things I actually really want. I'm sorry if this seems overly dramatic, but I'm having a hard time dealing with anything and everything in life right now and pins are just adding to it. I could use some major prayers and pixie dust right now. But please, I ask, no negativity here. As thumper said, If you aint got nothin' nice to say, don't say nothin' at all. Or something. Yeah. Please don't be mean to me. Thanks.
I saw my specialist today and was told I have an extreme vitamin D deficiency, so I have to take a huge dose of it once a week. Okay, no big deal. But I was also diagnosed with Fibro Myalgia.
On top of everything else, are pins. Collecting and trading for pins has always been something that I've found enjoyment in. I used to make trades constantly. People did it because it was FUN. Now? I've run into so many greedy people who turn their noses up at my pins, or want to take every single one of my 'best' pins for ONE of their pins, try to take advantage of me because they know how badly I want something, etc. I even organized a trade with someone for the Brave marquee, was in talks with someone in Japan for quite some time trying to get a pin for this person, and then the day I exchange addresses with the person in Japan, the person I was going to get the marquee from backs out, saying something about she wants a better Ariel pin for it. So now I'm stuck trading, eating the shipping costs, and am extremely disappointed. And don't even get me started on the Pixar exclusive pins!
I just....with everything in my real life going so terribly, I need something, just one thing, to go right in my life. And all I seem to concentrate on these boards are the pins that I feel like I'll never get. The ones that seem to haunt me, that I don't have a chance at. And with the huge mountain of straws on this camel's back right now, I just can't handle any more upset, or disappointment, or devastation, or people shoving their greed, their ebay quotes, their 'gimme gimme gimme' attitudes in my face. Pin trading used to be fun, but people seem in it just for the profit these days, everyone wants to always get the better end of the deal, to 'trade up'. This is NOT geared towards the people I've traded with, and I thank every one of you for being sweet and fair and so easy to work with!
I'm done here for a while. I might still put up auctions, or place bids on 'fun auctions', things I don't care about, and I will still be around to answer PMs and fulfill trades I'm already agreed to. But for now, I give up trying to get the things I actually really want. I'm sorry if this seems overly dramatic, but I'm having a hard time dealing with anything and everything in life right now and pins are just adding to it. I could use some major prayers and pixie dust right now. But please, I ask, no negativity here. As thumper said, If you aint got nothin' nice to say, don't say nothin' at all. Or something. Yeah. Please don't be mean to me. Thanks.